about
Set out to do something a little bigger than I had for the past two weeks. I had the idea for a slowly building song that began with only a voice and an organ and ended with a rushing, pushing wall of sound. The idea came to me in visual form, actually - I’ve always liked those moments on stage where a band takes a second to strip everything down. It’s very easy for me to get lost in noise - much harder to focus on individual elements and having them stand up on their own; it’s a different type of songwriting all together.
I’ve been thinking about death and loneliness a lot lately - Might be the weather in New York this time of year. I’ve also had a few deaths that have happened near me. I think these lyrics are a bit of a jumble - as are my own thoughts right now - but I was trying to show things from a number of sides. It’s very easy for me to find a depressed state, to feel like I’m dragging myself through the day, taking care of another me, an ill and tired version of myself (I’ve had a few songs this year where I’m talking to myself…). I had a chance to stay up late with some friends earlier this week and - as always - I found the energy and excitement it gave me remarkable. Cliche that it may be, I get lost without the light of those around me. I’m remarkably blessed for their presence, and their reminder of the light and life that’s always in reach, even when it’s dark.
You know I’m feeling emotional when there are sleigh bells on a track. Enjoy the sleigh bells, y’all.
lyrics
Rest your head before you give
Catch your breath before you’re spent
And in the end
I’ll make your bed
I’ll be the one to hold your hand
All my sleep is static screened
On the floor with you asleep
And in the end
I’ll make your bed
I’ll be the one to hold your hand
I never did more than you said I would
But you need to stop drinking my blood
Cuz oh I wanna get right! Right??
And love is a killer with forgiving eyes
Watch you smothered; a disarming smile
But oh I wanna get right!
Don’t you wanna get right?
And all the kids cheer old and deaf
“Oh I wish I would known!”
And it sounds like I’m screaming every time I sing
And I never go out, I only stay at home, safe inside
Inside I’m singing for the light
And no one is no one is no one is no one is right
And we burn down the wires, send signals, black, into night
“Come find your kind! Come and find your kind!”
Pack your foolish things
I won’t be getting late
Let’s leave this place for now
And save what can be saved
There is no end
Just another bed
I’ll be the one to hold your hand
I’ll hold your hand - Come inside
Inside we’re signing for the light
And no one is no one is no one is no one is right
And we burn down the wires, send signals - black - into night
“Come find your kind! Come and find your kind!”
credits
from
Singles 2010,
released December 31, 2010
Music and lyrics by Mattroi
license
all rights reserved